...1st monthsary...
...our 1st monthsary was at 18 of October..
we just greeted each other, it's my first time to celebrate monthsary.. hehehe.. because in my past relationships it only lasted 2 to 3 weeks.. (don't know why...)
that day was Monday, we decided to celebrate it on the coming 20, for there will be a Tugob Festival in the city (i can use that excuse so i can go to the city)
so there, it's October 20...
i went to the city and meet him there... we first took a look on the different booths there...
then we sat on the seawall where we waited the amazing firework display.
it was so amazing when the fireworks display started.. we watched it together <holding hands> weeeee..
then after that wonderful fireworks, we bought something to eat,
then we watch the Aegis concert... i enjoyed it, especially with him.
after, we searched for a perfect place to have our privacy (wahahahaha)
and guess where we found that place, well, it's a romantic place, a little dark, it's a seawall also.. hehehehe.. but we just love that place, there we spend few hours (ahem...)
then after that, we went back to the plaza and bought something to eat, again. well, let's just say for our breakfast.. hehehhe.. then there we sat at the seawall to wait the 1st trip bus..
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
6th part: can't get you out of my mind
...after that unforgettable night.
he's the one on my mind that whole night, from the time i got home until i laid down on my bed. it's so hard to sleep. i can close my eye, but my mind was so awake, kept on thinking about him, about the kiss.
it was passed midnight, at last my eyes became so heavy that i finally fell asleep.
when i woke up the next morning, he's the very first thought came on my mind. and it made me smile. i touched my lips, remembering about what happened last night. and i realized, i already missed him. i'd like to see him again. and there i picked up my phone and sent text message on him.
the whole day was so wonderful, it felt good. he's the one on my mind the whole day until i laid down again on my bed that night. i asked my self, I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM? i remembered what i promised about not giving so much of my heart to a person. but i realized in that moment, i am so in love with him, and i am ready to give more. i again asked my self, WHY DO I LOVE HIM? but i can't find a reason why, because all i knew was i LOVE him. and i just can't let him go. i will not going to let him go!!!
days rolled by, we kept on touched through cellphones. i realized that he's the one who made me smile now.
i am sure what i felt now...
I LOVE HIM!!!
he's the one on my mind that whole night, from the time i got home until i laid down on my bed. it's so hard to sleep. i can close my eye, but my mind was so awake, kept on thinking about him, about the kiss.
it was passed midnight, at last my eyes became so heavy that i finally fell asleep.
when i woke up the next morning, he's the very first thought came on my mind. and it made me smile. i touched my lips, remembering about what happened last night. and i realized, i already missed him. i'd like to see him again. and there i picked up my phone and sent text message on him.
the whole day was so wonderful, it felt good. he's the one on my mind the whole day until i laid down again on my bed that night. i asked my self, I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM? i remembered what i promised about not giving so much of my heart to a person. but i realized in that moment, i am so in love with him, and i am ready to give more. i again asked my self, WHY DO I LOVE HIM? but i can't find a reason why, because all i knew was i LOVE him. and i just can't let him go. i will not going to let him go!!!
days rolled by, we kept on touched through cellphones. i realized that he's the one who made me smile now.
i am sure what i felt now...
I LOVE HIM!!!
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
5th part: 1st kiss
...the next Saturday, we decided to meet again...
it was October 6, 2010...
armed with a confidence and mixed with excitement, i am ready to meet him again.
i was there at the city plaza, i was sitting at the bench near a dove post house. i sat there and tried to relax, gosh i was so nervous, again. but i did my best to took it away. then there he text me and asked me where i was, i said i was at the city plaza sitting near the dove post house. surprisingly, he's also there. then he approached me, from a distance i saw him. i immediately exhale and inhale (hehehehe, just to drag more confidence).
then there he sat beside me. i can hardly looked at him, but i did my best to twist my head and faced him. hehehe. there he smile at me (i like it, i realy love his smile, and note, his eyes too)
then there we walked and i just followed him (hehehehe) then there we found a spot, a bench under the dark shade of a tree. weeee you can't imagine my feelings that time. i realy don't know what it was.
and there he asked me to sit closed to him. and i did.
and then, he faced me and i looked at him. then he moved his head forward and touched my lips with his lips.(waaaaaaaaaaaaa... the 1st kiss was casted!!!) i realy don't know what i felt, i just like it. (hehehe) i forgot about the world. it's just felt good!!!
then he smiled at me. i smiled too.
then another thing happened that night...(hehehehe)
it was October 6, 2010...
armed with a confidence and mixed with excitement, i am ready to meet him again.
i was there at the city plaza, i was sitting at the bench near a dove post house. i sat there and tried to relax, gosh i was so nervous, again. but i did my best to took it away. then there he text me and asked me where i was, i said i was at the city plaza sitting near the dove post house. surprisingly, he's also there. then he approached me, from a distance i saw him. i immediately exhale and inhale (hehehehe, just to drag more confidence).
then there he sat beside me. i can hardly looked at him, but i did my best to twist my head and faced him. hehehe. there he smile at me (i like it, i realy love his smile, and note, his eyes too)
then there we walked and i just followed him (hehehehe) then there we found a spot, a bench under the dark shade of a tree. weeee you can't imagine my feelings that time. i realy don't know what it was.
and there he asked me to sit closed to him. and i did.
and then, he faced me and i looked at him. then he moved his head forward and touched my lips with his lips.(waaaaaaaaaaaaa... the 1st kiss was casted!!!) i realy don't know what i felt, i just like it. (hehehe) i forgot about the world. it's just felt good!!!
then he smiled at me. i smiled too.
then another thing happened that night...(hehehehe)
4th part: 1st meet
...i love my "mahal"...
i was at the city (Ormoc City) when my 2nd BF courted me. i ws sitting at the seawall. he courted me through text.. because he's at far place at that time, working at Palo, Leyte. guess what, i said yes immediately.. hehehehe...
that time i told my self, relationships of bisex never last. so when i love a bisexual guy, i will not going to give my whole heart to him. i will just going to give a 1/4 of my heart, so when he's going to leave me, it will not going to hurt that much.
as days gone by, we're communicating through texting and chating at the internet (especially at; person.com)
then time came that he told me that he's going home at Merida (it's just near at the city of Ormoc) and asked me if we can meet each other at the city. i said WHY NOT!
then it was Saturday, October 9, 2010 (as far as i remember:)) we first meet. woooooooooooooooow.. you can't imagine how nervous i was. and then there, i was fall inlove to see him. love at first sight (acctually it's love at second sight, hehehe.. i already saw him at Facebook)
then we walked and sat in a place, and stay silent. (hehehehe) then he spoke, i like his voice. hehehe. gosh, i was so nervous. i tried my best to come up with a topic, but my mind seemed to be empty. we just spent a little time so we can catch up with the last trip, then we walked together to the terminal.
i was at the city (Ormoc City) when my 2nd BF courted me. i ws sitting at the seawall. he courted me through text.. because he's at far place at that time, working at Palo, Leyte. guess what, i said yes immediately.. hehehehe...
that time i told my self, relationships of bisex never last. so when i love a bisexual guy, i will not going to give my whole heart to him. i will just going to give a 1/4 of my heart, so when he's going to leave me, it will not going to hurt that much.
as days gone by, we're communicating through texting and chating at the internet (especially at; person.com)
then time came that he told me that he's going home at Merida (it's just near at the city of Ormoc) and asked me if we can meet each other at the city. i said WHY NOT!
then it was Saturday, October 9, 2010 (as far as i remember:)) we first meet. woooooooooooooooow.. you can't imagine how nervous i was. and then there, i was fall inlove to see him. love at first sight (acctually it's love at second sight, hehehe.. i already saw him at Facebook)
then we walked and sat in a place, and stay silent. (hehehehe) then he spoke, i like his voice. hehehe. gosh, i was so nervous. i tried my best to come up with a topic, but my mind seemed to be empty. we just spent a little time so we can catch up with the last trip, then we walked together to the terminal.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
3rd part: relationships with a bisex
August 2010...
lots of things happened starting the month of August 2010...
one thing is, i have my first girlfriend, she's my classmate and friend during the time when i was at college. then, in the month of August i meet my first boyfriend. yeah, you read it right, first boyfriend. i acctually met him at Facebook, accidentally! i mestaken him as my friend, because they almost got the same name at Facebook. when i looked at his pictures, i realize i was mistaken. then, he accepted my Friend Request. and there, we started chating. then he gave me his number. well, he's cute, lder than me, he's working abroad as a cook. then as days rolled by, he told me that he like me. then i told him i like him too. then there, i became his boyfriend, and he became my boyfriend. at first, what i felt on him was just a kind of infatuation. but as i knew him, as we talk on phone so many times, texting each other, i fall inlove with him.
weeks past, we're doin fine, he's so sweet, he loved me very much, he sometimes talked at phone, sometimes cam to cam chat, until everything became blurry... as the month of September began.
he was so pessimistic, and one that i don't like about him was, he's keep on bringing the past, his past experience, which were bad experiences on his love life, and he kept on comparing me on his past relationships, and i don't like it. thats why i decided to take a break, i don't answer all his calls, all his text messages, and his messages at Facebook. then i decided to break up with him.
he became insane about it, he sent me text messages about suiciding, or not eating, crying all nigth. even his co-workers, also a Filipino, sent text on me about what happening on him, i don't know if it's true, or it's all a lie. then also in this time also i discovered that my girlfriend doesn't truely love me. and it was the worse time ever!!!
but it's ok, everything's back to normal when i met this new guy. and he became my second and current boyfriend. he's Ron!:) :) :)
we met in a seocial network site, Person.com, to be exact. he's the one who spotted me first, then sent me a message. then there, we chatted, then he gave me his number. then at September 18, 2010, we're on!!! yeah.
lots of things happened starting the month of August 2010...
one thing is, i have my first girlfriend, she's my classmate and friend during the time when i was at college. then, in the month of August i meet my first boyfriend. yeah, you read it right, first boyfriend. i acctually met him at Facebook, accidentally! i mestaken him as my friend, because they almost got the same name at Facebook. when i looked at his pictures, i realize i was mistaken. then, he accepted my Friend Request. and there, we started chating. then he gave me his number. well, he's cute, lder than me, he's working abroad as a cook. then as days rolled by, he told me that he like me. then i told him i like him too. then there, i became his boyfriend, and he became my boyfriend. at first, what i felt on him was just a kind of infatuation. but as i knew him, as we talk on phone so many times, texting each other, i fall inlove with him.
weeks past, we're doin fine, he's so sweet, he loved me very much, he sometimes talked at phone, sometimes cam to cam chat, until everything became blurry... as the month of September began.
he was so pessimistic, and one that i don't like about him was, he's keep on bringing the past, his past experience, which were bad experiences on his love life, and he kept on comparing me on his past relationships, and i don't like it. thats why i decided to take a break, i don't answer all his calls, all his text messages, and his messages at Facebook. then i decided to break up with him.
he became insane about it, he sent me text messages about suiciding, or not eating, crying all nigth. even his co-workers, also a Filipino, sent text on me about what happening on him, i don't know if it's true, or it's all a lie. then also in this time also i discovered that my girlfriend doesn't truely love me. and it was the worse time ever!!!
but it's ok, everything's back to normal when i met this new guy. and he became my second and current boyfriend. he's Ron!:) :) :)
we met in a seocial network site, Person.com, to be exact. he's the one who spotted me first, then sent me a message. then there, we chatted, then he gave me his number. then at September 18, 2010, we're on!!! yeah.
2nd part: disappointing and surprising
...then i started chating with bisexuals on the net, in order to learn more. that time, ahm 2009, i was just a fresh graduate from a two-year course. i don't have work yet, because i was still 17 when i graduate...
the beginning of 2010!! at the middle of my research about bisexual, i was courting a girl, she's my high school love one (my 1st love). but unfortunately she lied to me, she just fool me... she never told me that she already have a boyfriend. what worse was, her boyfriend was the one who told me about them. i was disappointed about that. but what's funny most was, when her boyfriend ask my number. at first i thought, maybe because he just want to learn more about her. then he want us to meet , he said he just want to say something. i lied and said that i am leaving for manila. (hehehehe) but a few days later, he send a text message to me that he like me because according to him, i am "cute" (ahem). i was surprise... weeeee!!! i never thought about it! but i just keep it a secret...
the beginning of 2010!! at the middle of my research about bisexual, i was courting a girl, she's my high school love one (my 1st love). but unfortunately she lied to me, she just fool me... she never told me that she already have a boyfriend. what worse was, her boyfriend was the one who told me about them. i was disappointed about that. but what's funny most was, when her boyfriend ask my number. at first i thought, maybe because he just want to learn more about her. then he want us to meet , he said he just want to say something. i lied and said that i am leaving for manila. (hehehehe) but a few days later, he send a text message to me that he like me because according to him, i am "cute" (ahem). i was surprise... weeeee!!! i never thought about it! but i just keep it a secret...
1st part: confusions
...i was an ignorant guy, i really don't know about life. maybe its because of how my parents manage my grewing up years. as a little boy until i am at senior year, all i knew was school and home. yeah, school and home. thats why now, i'd rather stay at home rather than going out. i am a silent-type guy (well, to those who are not close to me). i can manage to be alone, and i really don't like noisy and crowded places. so i'd rather stay at home reading books, drawing, mobile texting, watching tv, etc... you may think what a boring life, hehehe. but yeah thats what i am...
what's changes my life now??? well, it's when i descovered about bisexuals! yeah. funny right?? i became intersted on them. i only discovered about them when i was at college. of course i am with different people. but what gave me an accurate explanations about them was the internet world.
in that time i became confused about my self, i don't know how. maybe because teenagers is the changing part of life, its when the whole life changes happened for the preparation for the adult life. to tell you, i have a crush with a guy.. shocking to hear but me to when i felt it my self. i don't know how did it happened, but it's just a rush. i didn't mean to feel that way. i was thinking maybe i am gay, but NO!!! of course not, i hate gays. well, not totally but i don't like gays. so i am fighting with my own emotion. i told my self so many times, that NO!!! I AM NOT GAY!!! NO!!!
but what confused me a lot was when i have a crush to this girl, acctually my classmate. so i asked my self how come, i have a crush to this guy, and on the other hand i also have a crush to this girl... i was so confused... i ignored what i feel to the guy, i concentrate to the girl. but when i so "cute" guys, i seemed like falling, and found my self daydreaming. and when i saw "cute" girls, i found my self staring at them and thinking of them always. confusing right?? yeah of course it was.. thats why i consulted my condition to the internet world. i posted questions to a social network sites about what's happening to me. and there i got the answers. they said i was maybe a bisexual guy. i said WHAT's THAT?? according to them, a bisexual guy, is a guy who fall inlove with the opposite sex, and also with the same sex.
according to the world web, there are lots of bisexual guys in the world. but my curiosity never ends there... i'm wondering what kind of life a bisexual guy have. but to what i discovered. it's just normal. the only different was they're loving both sexes.. hahaha.. cool...
what's changes my life now??? well, it's when i descovered about bisexuals! yeah. funny right?? i became intersted on them. i only discovered about them when i was at college. of course i am with different people. but what gave me an accurate explanations about them was the internet world.
in that time i became confused about my self, i don't know how. maybe because teenagers is the changing part of life, its when the whole life changes happened for the preparation for the adult life. to tell you, i have a crush with a guy.. shocking to hear but me to when i felt it my self. i don't know how did it happened, but it's just a rush. i didn't mean to feel that way. i was thinking maybe i am gay, but NO!!! of course not, i hate gays. well, not totally but i don't like gays. so i am fighting with my own emotion. i told my self so many times, that NO!!! I AM NOT GAY!!! NO!!!
but what confused me a lot was when i have a crush to this girl, acctually my classmate. so i asked my self how come, i have a crush to this guy, and on the other hand i also have a crush to this girl... i was so confused... i ignored what i feel to the guy, i concentrate to the girl. but when i so "cute" guys, i seemed like falling, and found my self daydreaming. and when i saw "cute" girls, i found my self staring at them and thinking of them always. confusing right?? yeah of course it was.. thats why i consulted my condition to the internet world. i posted questions to a social network sites about what's happening to me. and there i got the answers. they said i was maybe a bisexual guy. i said WHAT's THAT?? according to them, a bisexual guy, is a guy who fall inlove with the opposite sex, and also with the same sex.
according to the world web, there are lots of bisexual guys in the world. but my curiosity never ends there... i'm wondering what kind of life a bisexual guy have. but to what i discovered. it's just normal. the only different was they're loving both sexes.. hahaha.. cool...
start...
i was just a simple guy, live life simple. i am living with my parents. i am 19 years old now. but like as usaul Filipino culture, still dependent to the family. i am dependent, but i really want to be independent, but i don't know how, i was just affraid... sound ridiculous... in my age i should be independent, but i am so weak to be. my parents are so "over" protected, that they don't want us to get hurt.. but of course i respect them so i obey them all my life, they are important to me. funny to hear but as i grew up form primary to secondary, the only place i knew was school and home.. yeah, my parents don't let us came out the houseif there's no class. you see i have two siblings, a sister and a brother. they are the only playmates i knew, well, count in some nieghbors. but sometimes, its just me and my sister and brother were playing inside the house. ive got jealous whenever i see kids playing outside, sometimes i sneak out just to play with them, and once i was caught, there, scolding time. i am so ignorant as i started going out, thats during my college life.. hehehehe..
romantic happening here: during high school, well let's talk about the romance.. hehehhe. well, i was a shy guy, silent type (but thats only when i was alone, or i am with anyone not that close to me). ive got so much crushes in that days. when i was a freshman, i have a crush on a girl in our class, she's so outspoken, funny with, and always share jokes with me. when i was a sophomore, a clos friend became special to me. (hehehe) she's smart, artistic (like me), but funny sometimes, she's older than me.. when i was at junior. i meet this girl, well, let me describe how great she was... she's noisy, happy-on-the-go, funny to be with, always found things funny. thats why i like her.. so i have a crush on her... i just keep it.. i am afraid to tell her about it.. so i just enjoy the time with her. laugh with her, play stupid pranks with her, sing with her. i know, if she'll know that i have a crush on her, she will keep on distancing on me. so i just keep it. until at the last days of the junior year. i realize that i was inlove with her. and then at the senior year, i was shock when i heard the news that my bestfriend, and that girl i was in love was dating. one of my close friend told me that. i was a little bit dissapointed. ofcourse i dont want to show how dissapointed i am so i just laugh and smile painfully. then a month later, the news broke in that my bestfriend and her has broken up. i saw them as they were pretending to be alright. and for the very first time i saw her cry because of him. i was a little bit mad at my best friend. but i didn't show it. a few months later, at last she has moved on..
the most trilling part was when the whole class discovered my feelings for her.. waaaaaaaaaaaa.. it was a shame.. i knew it, i shoudn't tell my friends about it.. they were the one who spread it. and i hate it, bot because of what, but its the reason why she felt uncomfortable now with me.. she's shy. now look what happened. our friendship was gone. but it's ok, its a relief when a friend of her told me that she has a crush on me too.. OMG! what a miracle.. hehehehe. but sadly i cant court her. well, its because of my parents. they told me not to court anyone when i am still studying. and i loved them, i respect them, so i obey them. but the romance still continues.. we started to send letter to each other, secretly.. hehehehe.. i kept all her letters, and read it many times.. hehehe.. and take note, one time we have a little fight, in the letter!! funny right?? even just in letters fighting is not impossible.. hehehe. but it's ok.. just a few days we back in track again.. hehehe.. she said she's a jealous type girl thats why she's mad at me because she saw me with another girl.. but i explained it to her that that girl is just a friend. we graduated at the senior year just stayed as that. not in relationship, but, seemed like commited.. hehehehe...
romantic happening here: during high school, well let's talk about the romance.. hehehhe. well, i was a shy guy, silent type (but thats only when i was alone, or i am with anyone not that close to me). ive got so much crushes in that days. when i was a freshman, i have a crush on a girl in our class, she's so outspoken, funny with, and always share jokes with me. when i was a sophomore, a clos friend became special to me. (hehehe) she's smart, artistic (like me), but funny sometimes, she's older than me.. when i was at junior. i meet this girl, well, let me describe how great she was... she's noisy, happy-on-the-go, funny to be with, always found things funny. thats why i like her.. so i have a crush on her... i just keep it.. i am afraid to tell her about it.. so i just enjoy the time with her. laugh with her, play stupid pranks with her, sing with her. i know, if she'll know that i have a crush on her, she will keep on distancing on me. so i just keep it. until at the last days of the junior year. i realize that i was inlove with her. and then at the senior year, i was shock when i heard the news that my bestfriend, and that girl i was in love was dating. one of my close friend told me that. i was a little bit dissapointed. ofcourse i dont want to show how dissapointed i am so i just laugh and smile painfully. then a month later, the news broke in that my bestfriend and her has broken up. i saw them as they were pretending to be alright. and for the very first time i saw her cry because of him. i was a little bit mad at my best friend. but i didn't show it. a few months later, at last she has moved on..
the most trilling part was when the whole class discovered my feelings for her.. waaaaaaaaaaaa.. it was a shame.. i knew it, i shoudn't tell my friends about it.. they were the one who spread it. and i hate it, bot because of what, but its the reason why she felt uncomfortable now with me.. she's shy. now look what happened. our friendship was gone. but it's ok, its a relief when a friend of her told me that she has a crush on me too.. OMG! what a miracle.. hehehehe. but sadly i cant court her. well, its because of my parents. they told me not to court anyone when i am still studying. and i loved them, i respect them, so i obey them. but the romance still continues.. we started to send letter to each other, secretly.. hehehehe.. i kept all her letters, and read it many times.. hehehe.. and take note, one time we have a little fight, in the letter!! funny right?? even just in letters fighting is not impossible.. hehehe. but it's ok.. just a few days we back in track again.. hehehe.. she said she's a jealous type girl thats why she's mad at me because she saw me with another girl.. but i explained it to her that that girl is just a friend. we graduated at the senior year just stayed as that. not in relationship, but, seemed like commited.. hehehehe...
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